After John Gray’s emotional New Year’s Eve sermon where he admitted he’s thought about ending his marriage and ending his life, he recently got some help from fellow pastor T.D. Jakes.
During a pastors’ leadership conference at the co-hosted by the First Baptist Church of Glenarden and Greater Mt. Calvary Holy Church on Jan. 5, Jakes prayed over Gray and noted the spirit of suicide continued to lurk in his home.
“I don’t even want to open this up in public because I know how deep it is,” Jakes says as he approaches Gray. “But the Lord power of the anointing is passing by. There is too much anointing in this room to minister to everybody else and leave you sitting over there festering and festering and festering and festering, especially — you said it in a joking way — but especially when the spirit of suicide hangs around your house. I’m trying to get you back. … I call it out!”
After praying the spirit out of him, he went on to say that Gray “always wanted God to make a man out of you.”
“You’re gifted. You’re anointed. You’ve always been gifted because you’ve been broken,” he tells the pastor. “You’ve always been gifted because you’ve been broken. And you know how to flow and you know how to bless everybody and everybody got your gift but nobody got you. Nobody got you. Nobody got you. They got your gift, but they never got you. And God is touching you. He’s using it to touch you. He’s going to make a man out of you.”
The impassioned prayer came after Gray’s sermon earlier this month that saw him admit to thoughts of killing himself.
“I literally thought about how I could end my life and still get to heaven and somehow my kids would not be scared but there was no way I could figure out how to do it and I’m not the only person that thought about that,” the pastor said to his congregation at the Relentless Church on Dec. 31. “I’m not the only person the devil attacked in that area.”
Gray also admitted to troubles in his marriage.
“We had to keep smiling because even though we were struggling, even though I was failing as a husband, I was already in front of the people, and the people can’t really receive my brokenness, because where do leaders go when they bleed?” he said. “So I had to bleed alone.”
“And what’s strange is I traveled the whole world and the Holy Ghost showed up and people got saved and me and my wife just kept smiling and nobody knew we were getting ready to get a divorce,” he continued. “Because as long as I kept producing, nobody cared what was happening at home. I started listening to the wrong voices and let some people get too close. And she found out, and she set it off, just like a good wife should.”
Then, his wife, Aventer Gray, grabbed the microphone and expounded upon her husband’s words saying, “I prayed for them and him and then the devil loses. … Was I upset? Yes. Was I heartbroken? Yes. But you better learn how to get in there for the — what’s the vows? — better and worst so when the worst shows up you don’t run away.”
“I put scripture on that strange woman, I put scripture on that strange woman. She don’t want it with me and she don’t want it with y’all,” she added.
The emotional sermon came just a month after Gray was criticized for gifting his wife with a $200,000 Lamborghini SUV in honor of their eighth wedding anniversary. However, some claimed the gift was only a coverup to make up for the pastor allegedly having a mistress, whom he’s rumored to have gotten pregnant.
