Rapper Kid Cudi opened up about an ongoing battle with anxiety, depression and suicide, revealing he has entered treatment for the illnesses.
The MC explained he felt “ashamed” and he was “living a lie.”
“It’s been difficult for me to find the words to what I’m about to share with you because I feel ashamed,” Cudi – born Scott Mescudi – began. “Ashamed to be a leader and hero to so many while admitting I’ve been living a lie. It took me a while to get to this place of commitment, but it is something I have to do for myself, my family, my best friend, daughter and all of you, my fans.”
The Brooklyn-raised rapper entered a treatment facility Oct. 3 “for depression and suicidal urges.”
Cudi explained he consistently felt uneasy and that his anxiety and depression caused him to never leave his home. It also prevented him from making new friends.
“I’m tired of being held back in my life,” he shared. “I deserve to have peace. I deserve to be happy and smiling. Why not me? I guess I give so much of myself to others I forgot that I need to show myself some love too. I think I never really knew how.”
Cudi repeatedly apologized throughout the post, feeling like he “let a lot of people down.” He explained he will not be able to promote his music, which includes a song called “Frequency” released Sept. 30.
However, he promised fans his management and label will keep them informed and noted an album is still forthcoming. Cudi also stated he aims to complete treatment in time for ComplexCon music festival, where he is scheduled to perform Nov. 5.
While fans gave Cudi their love and support, his personal reveal puts his beef with Kanye West and Drake into perspective.
In September, the Cleveland-born rapper tweeted a series of messages bashing entertainers he deemed “the fake ones.”
“My tweets apply to who they apply,” Cudi wrote. “Ye, Drake, whoever.” He also stated the two didn’t care about him.
My tweets apply to who they apply. Ye, Drake, whoever. These niggas dont give a fuck about me. And they aint fuckin with me.
— The Chosen One (@KidCudi) September 14, 2016