When Carmella looks at Rudy, she sees his insecurity and withdrawal, which she does not find attractive. She sees his neediness when he pouts over not having sex. She sees his lack of motivation — he is not a go-getter. She sees his growing potbelly, which is the result of a lack of exercise. As a result of seeing all these “defects,” Carmella is thinking of leaving Rudy. Instead of feeling loving toward Rudy, she finds herself being more and more critical of him.
The problem is that Carmella is seeing only Rudy’s outer self and his ego wounded self — the part of him that comes from fear and false beliefs. But this is not who Rudy really is.
Carmella fell in love with Rudy because of his sweetness, warmth, sensitivity, creativity and sense of humor. Rudy still has all of these wonderful qualities — they are who he really is. Yet this is not what Carmella sees now when she looks at Rudy.
Rather than just leave the relationship, Carmella and Rudy sought my help. It soon became apparent that Carmella’s intention in the relationship was far more focused on controlling Rudy than on loving herself and him. Having an innately sensitive nature, Rudy felt crushed by the criticism and had learned to retreat to protect himself from the rejection he so often experienced with Carmella. He loved her very much, but he didn’t feel loved by her. When he tried to talk with her about it, she just defended herself and attacked him even more. Over time, he had learned to just withdraw.
Both Carmella and Rudy were intent on controlling each other rather than being kind and caring to themselves and each other. Carmella was trying to get Rudy to be more assertive and motivated with her criticism, while Rudy was trying to have control over how Carmella felt about him by being quiet, and was trying to control his pain with his withdrawal. Both of their forms of control were causing problems in the relationship.
Read more: Dr. Margaret Paul, YourTango