Beyonce is continuing to shock and impress her fans as she hosted her own director’s cut screening of her new visual, self-titled album in New York, rocking none other than her husband’s favorite designer, Tom Ford.
The Queen of the Beyhive took to the School of Visual Arts in downtown Manhattan where she answered questions from her fans over Instagram and remained open and honest about her struggles with releasing the album via iTunes without promotion.
She admitted that she feared how the album would be accepted and even played out worst-case scenarios in her mind.
“I just got off the stage, I had a glass of wine and my cousin Angie was like, ‘Are you alright?’ because I was talking to myself and I was terrified,” Beyonce said as she recalled the moments before her album released on iTunes. “I was so scared. I had already gone through all the horrible ways it could go in my mind … I saw it live on iTunes and I waited for the first comment. Then I woke up the next morning and…”
At that moment Beyonce broke out into a celebratory dance that had the audience cracking up.
When another fan asked about what went into keeping the album a secret, and why she wanted to keep it under wraps. Beyonce explained that the release was her way of getting back to the way the music industry used to work when she was younger.
“We went through everything to keep it sacred and a surprise,” she said. “Because there’s joy in that and it’s missing, and that’s something I was able to experience as a kid.”
She went on to explain that in today’s industry everything is about the “hype” rather than the music and the talent.
Beyonce also said that the album truly affected who she was an artist and pushed her to new limits. It also allowed her to be honest with herself about who Beyonce was and who Sasha Fierce was.
She explained that women are complicated and the self-titled album was her way of saying Sasha Fierce isn’t an alter ego. Sasha Fierce is Beyonce and women don’t need an excuse to be comfortable with their sexual being.
That was only one of the many revelations that she claimed made her a better woman at the end of her journey through the new album and motherhood.
“It’s amazing how motherhood changes you,” she said. “I took all the things about myself that I wanted to change and put it in my music. More than the music, I’m proud of myself as a woman. It’s about loving your imperfections and the things that make you interesting, because I refuse to let anyone put me in a box.”
While she didn’t talk to her fans for long (the question and answer portion was just under 10 minutes), she did leave a lasting impression especially in a fitted black and sheer Tom Ford dress that showed off her flawless figure.
The fitted dress was sort of an illusion as it was see through all over but still managed to look discreet.
As a salute to her husband Jay Z, she snapped a picture in the dress and posted it on Instagram with the caption, “I don’t pop molly I rock…”
The caption is half of the line in Jay Z’s song “Tom Ford” in which the hip hop mogul raps, “I don’t pop molly I rock Tom Ford.”